My Explanation

First off, I would like to say that this event wouldn't have happened if someone [you know who you are] had kept his word instead of going off somewhere with his swimming buddies. Try to keep your words to me next time. I could only tolerate so much. And you got me into a troublesome situation too. You owe me and YOU OWE ME BIG!

Well, as the effect of the above, I had to go and buy dinner very much later than my usual time. On top of that it was raining. Not heavily, but still it rained. At HB3 [Hostel Block 3], the part where the shop had a cover/top was little. So it was crowded with many people ordering food at the shop. And I was taking my order after it was finished. And then came a Malay girl, impatiently ordering her food. She came almost too close to me so I took a step aside not realizing there was an Indian girl beside me.

And when I realized she was there, my hand was almost touching hers. I quickly retracted my hand as not to touch her. That was when the misunderstanding came in. If you are one of my friends [normal friends, not close ones], you would know that I always have a serious face. And as usual, I had my usual serious face put on when I retracted my hand. Plus, a kind of a shocked face because I didn't notice that the Indian girl was beside me. So it seemed she mistook me as a racist. Because she made this face like "what? you don't want to touch me because I'm an Indian?" kind of face. I didn't know what to do so I smiled, nod a little, and went away back to my room.

So let me tell you something to make this clear to anyone reading this. When I am walking and there is/are girl(s) walking in the opposite direction, I will always put my hands behind my back. It doesn't matter if she was Indian, Chinese, Malay, Japanese, Korean, Arab, Kenyan, or whatever, I will do that nonetheless. It doesn't mean that I'm a racist or sexist or even gay.

That, is the one of the highest honors that I show to the women.

It is because I believe that every woman's honor is not to let any man simply touch them. One of it [the honors] anyways. To keep themselves for their man and not others. That is why I do not touch women unnecessarily. It is to protect that honor. That means no handshakes (unless the person give her hand first because rejecting that would be rude), no high fives, no pats on the shoulder, and so on.

It might seemed funny, coming from a guy like me. One who is wearing ring(s), a necklace [sometimes], sometimes a soft bracelet, and once in a while, funny stripes on my hairdo. But that is just the way I am. You can choose not to believe me, but I'll always keep my ways.

Tag from Firdaus

Whew, at last, somebody commented on my shoutbox. LOL. I didn't want to use my own name, so....haha. Kesian cokrain. Kalau aku tak buat nanti si daus tu kate aku ni tak sporting. Tapi, aku bukanlah "Your everlasting enemy" ek cokrain.


Dear cokrain,:

I don't really know how to tell you this, but you're a pervert. I think I realized it when you put cuffs on me in your camping car and I saw you carve your initials into my avocado plant. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that there is no solution to this. I'm returning your memories from the military service to you, but I'll keep your neighbour Martin as a memory. You should also know that I get sick when I think of the apartment building.

Your everlasting enemy,

-Ezrin-

My victims,

Anyone who reads this and feels like doing it.




Instructions to Write this Hate Letter:
1. Copy the letter:

Dear _____, (the last person who left a comment on your blog/journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it___2___ ___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,

-Your name-

2. Fill in the blanks with choices of answers as below
3. Tag anyone u want!

Answers:
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scared
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - How awful I've felt
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Hate your guts
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain

A late Valentine's post.

Just watched the movie Music And Lyrics on Astro. Again. And, since yesterday was Valentine's Day, I thought I'd just post the lyrics to the nice song from that movie.

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past
I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh
Oh oh oh

Happy Valentine's Day, dear friend. Your reply to my message made my day. Thank You.

O.M.E [read backwards]

I wanted to write this yesterday (Friday) but since I was busy sleeping, I kinda forgot it. So, here I am, unable to sleep, writing this on very early morning of Saturday.

The thing actually happened on Wednesday. It was somewhat historical. A girl, pretty much pretty, chose to sit beside me in class. Well, that might not be important to YOU, but to ME, it was. Why? Because, there has never been a girl, who is brave enough, to sit beside me when there are other empty seats around. That is of course unless they are family and friends. But then again, even some girl-friends do not want to sit beside me when there are other available seats around. I just don't know why. But, sadly, the happy feeling I got did not last long.

You see, it was raining outside the class then. And after the class finished, it stopped. So I walked back to the hostel. Although it was not raining for a long period of time, but it was enough to make some part of the ground the ground muddy (I don't know the exact word to "lecah" so I put that for the moment). And when I reached the gate near the hostel, there was a girl walking towards me. She looked at me, walked towards me as trying to evade me. And, she stepped on the unpaved, muddy ground. For what? Just trying to evade me? I know I'm a big person, but I really don't think I'm THAT BIG that I use the whole paved path for myself.

I don't know what she saw that made her act like she did. But honestly, it kinda hurt my feelings. She started evading to the side when she saw me. If she was drunk, and walking like a drunkard, I wouldn't have mind. Do I have a wanted poster entitled "Wanted, serial rapist on the loose" anywhere in Cyberjaya? If I do, please, someone tell me. I have to know. I have to know why most girls acted like they do around me. And yes, that girl who stepped on the muddy ground was not the first to do that to me. There were others before her. Although you can say I'm used to it, sometimes, it still hurts.

*Just now, I went and have light supper with Faiz and Firdaus and told them this story. Faiz said I'm too sensitive. Maybe I am. But then again, maybe I'm not and there really are wanted posters of me posted around Cyberjaya in secrets..LOL

On another note, Thursdays in this trimester will be hell for me. Starting next week, I'm going to have classes from 8AM all the way until 6PM. One week had passed already. Only 12 more to go. Great. *sigh* I'm going to hate Thursdays for this trimester.

Be careful what you type...because....I PRINT SCREEN! V(^_^)V

Yeap. For some people on my Yahoo! Messenger, I do like to print screen [so evil]. Maybe because of the hard learned lesson of last time when someone did not believe what I told even though we were very close friends. Well, that person is still my friend but I'm not quite sure about the other way round.

Ooookay, let's just go on [let's Go-On] Go-Onger style. Enjoy these 4 pictures:

Confession of a porn-watcher and a try at cover up (by pretending to be someone else) (^_^)

Evil is contagious and feels so good. Btw, Gay Detected! (don't worry though, I don't discriminate)

This, is just another example of my (our) craziness. Do take note that the links are not for good little children. And I do mean NOT FOR GOOD LITTLE CHILDREN. V(^_^)V

And another craziness with the last part being a confession of a porn-watcher. Again. LOL

Aaaaand I'm off to bed [not straight away of course]. Tomorrow will be another day in my Gamma year. Yeap, I'm officially repeating Gamma year all over again. I will miss the Nanotechnology friends of my original batch. But hey, who knows. Maybe, just maybe, you guys would fail one or two subjects and we can meet again in class. LOL. Just kidding. All the best for you guys. I will miss the noisy atmosphere of our class.

Ps: All the pictures up there do not represent the real Azam. Those are just Yahoo! Messenger moments where we all will act crazy. The real person is a nice person who does not watch porn. I think.

Ps2: Don't have one.

Ps3: Also don't have one.

Psp: Left at home for my sisters as I have a new toy to play with. Yay.

Ps4: Like hell there is one now. If any of you knows a nice template for Blogger, please let me know as I want to change the look of this page.

R&R

After such a long time, I'm finally back. It's not that I don't want to update, it's just contrary to someone's belief, I actually do have a life. And a pretty busy one at that too. Well then, first thing's first. A little Rules and Regulations (waoooo) that were suggested by some people who also read the idiotic comments of a certain idiotic loser.

1.
This is MY blog. I write, you read. You comment, I read.
2.
Blog-hoppers are welcomed, but please behave yourself.
3.
Whiner babies are NOT welcomed.
-Whiner babies on my definition:
someone who, in a losing argument and could not come up with a good comeback, resorted to "spell checking".
4.
I reserved the rights to delete any comments which leads to:
-racism
-defamation
-hatred [racial, Religion, etc]
5.
........TBA...if anything comes up.

This blog is for fun, not a serious discussion on gadgets, or world's issues. It is written on a whim. I would appreciate it very much if you do not cause any trouble here. Lets just have fun together.

Alien (?) Ressurection

Phoenix Down!
Life!
Life 2!
Raise!
Raise 2!
Raise 3!
ザオラル!
ザオリク!


It's alive! Again..unfortunately for a certain idiotic blog-hopper!

Will update later...tata~

Ps: If you don't understand the things written up there, ask "Uncle Google"